| fireproof. |
[Oct. 2nd, 2009|12:39 am] |
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poignant from the very start till the ending. more than just a yardstick for relationships, it is in every bit a reflection of our own relationships.
Caleb: "Marriage isn't fireproof, you get burned" Michael: "Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means that when the fire comes, you'll be able to withstand it."
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| i had a dream, |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|02:25 pm] |
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I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me. I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.
I had a dream That I could fly from the highest swing. I had a dream.
Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be. The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.
I had a dream That I could fly from the highest tree. I had a dream.
Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave. I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.
I had a dream
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| AH DAI. |
[May. 30th, 2009|09:54 pm] |



meet AH DAI everyone, (apparently DAI means big. lol.) the 3 year old great dane from farmway 1, believe me when i say he is huge as (but really a softie at heart, he moseys up to everyone and lets them pat him.) i really couldn't measure his greatness when my dad showed me a photo of him the last time they went there, and today i finally saw him for myself, already more than half of my body when sitting and his sheer size so impeccable you wonder what they feed him. i just had to share him with yall, he's such a dear he'll literally take your breath away.
p.s. apparently the owners have an alsation that's even bigger than ah dai, but he was away at a chalet. damn. |
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| for whom. |
[May. 26th, 2009|03:06 pm] |

we're really heroes of ourselves sometimes, we all deserve that pat on the back, that self-satisfactory gaze in the mirror, accomplished by our own means and will. |
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[May. 26th, 2009|12:18 am] |

we were at the right place, at the right time. picking out the familiar tunes running through the throngs of activity at aston's, disapproving the heightened pace of I'm Yours at first, before gradually diminishing our critiques, awed and flabbergasted at how our favorite tunes melded seamlessly into one melodic symphony.
p.s. click the picture to play!
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| day 1, |
[May. 22nd, 2009|10:33 am] |
My lasik surgery was yesterday and if anything, i was neither mentally nor spiritually prepared. The night before i was fervently praying with clenched fists and all about making the whole surgery a success, and that's when i realised i know that he's there, i just was too damn nervous and scared if i might add. So while i sat at Shinagawa, waiting for my name to be called, i tried my best to crack up jokes with mummy who was half-asleep. haha. but she did her best to entertain me before she could no longer stay in the room with me. p.s. you can skip straight to room 4 & 5 if you want the actual exciting bits.
Room 1: The nurse, Jaslin, (really sweet twenty-something) tries to calm me down by saying she just had her lasik in October and wished she had done it earlier cos it was so fast. But i think when i asked her the preeminent question, "is it scary?", she actually hesitated a while before saying "no la, just interesting." okayyy. so yeah, room one was the pill-taking room of a relaxant and anti-discomfort. The usual eye-drops for anti-inflammatory and infection.
Room 2: The room where my nerves were making me shiver, relaxant drug so not working. I was lying on a massage chair trying to listen to the soothing music and hoping my curtains of privacy wouldn't flutter, cos then i know it'd be time for the cutting of my cornea! Another round of eye-drops while i continued sitting there nerves on a high.
Room 3: The nurse in scrubs calls me out from my private rest room and tells me to change into these obiang looking rubberised black sandals. (note: i caught Dr. Lee wearing Crocs, why can't i have crocs too. not that i like crocs but it seems more fashionable than my obiang ahpek looking sandals) The nurse gowns me and administers more eye-drops before cleaning my eye with really smelly liquid that stained the cotton, either that it was the dirt in my eyes. oops. Then i was asked to shift over to another chair where Dr. Lee examined my eye for one last time. And from this point onwards, the operation proceeds. (i was hell brave i swear, i was trying so hard not to look at the shit scary equipments grunting.)
Room 4: The cutting cornea flap room. I was asked to lie on this hard bed, where a nurse tucks me under a space blanket (but seriously, i was breaking out in cold sweat) I was then swung under the surgical equipment where i'm told to stare at a rim of white lights while Dr. Lee inserts this springy device to keep my eyelids open. RIght eye went well, Dr Lee and my left eye went on an instant struggle to push my eyelids open. oops. okay so now the scary part. Dr Lee asks if i'm ready before the machine and this dome-shaped thingamajig comes down on my eye and starts to suck at it. there's hell lot of pressure and just when i think i'm not gonna make it, the nurse talks to me and reminds me that i have 25s, 15s, then 10s left to the procedure. and all this time i can't move a bit of an inch, not my mouth, not my teeth, not nothing. When the thing finally retracts, it feels like the thingy doesn't wanna let go of my cornea, it literally unsucked my cornea at this snail pace. (&*^&) my vision is extremely blur and hazy after this and apparently i had very big mucus coming out from my eye. So after both eyes were done, my palms were sweating, even when the nurse washed my eyes down to get rid of mucus. and the only comforting part of this surgery... "you did well, the worst is over, the next part will be a breeze!." haha. and i immediately shut my eyes after that, wishing this didn't have to be broken down into so many parts.
Room 5: Time for lasik correction. This room was far less scary though the equipment made really loud unpleasant noises. I was tucked under a space blanket again (no use again cos i couldn't seem to relax myself. haha) while Dr. Lee calibrated the machine. He asks if i'm ready before putting a drape over my left eye, leaving an opening for my right. He then tapes open my eyelids (this was rather uncomfortable) and places some disc over my eye. Then i'm supposed to stare at this green light for a few seconds before he shows me a red mess of light. Red light means lasik is gonna begin and as i'm staring i smell this faint burning smell. (i really dare not think of what was being burnt) so it lasts for a few seconds before the green light comes back on and instantly my heart goes back to normal speed until i see this sharp device Dr Lee uses to move my eyeball and place the flap back. oh goodness, i promise you it's almost surreal that you can see everything happen but not feel anything. Explains why at this point i break out in cold sweat under the space blanket again. The procedure is repeated for my other eye and after cleaning up both eyes, i'm back at my private rest area.
Room 6: It is here my eyes feel funny and i dare not open them, i was groping around the table trying to get a grip on my green tea, hoping some warmth would spread in my body. But i was still shivering. haha. this was when the relaxant drugs kicked in i think. or maybe it was just the thought that i conquered the whole surgery, fighting my screaming nerves. before i knew it the nurse was explaining to me my post-op care kit and Dr Lee did a final check-up on my eyes before sending me back home.
( post-op kit under the cut! )
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| live high, |
[May. 19th, 2009|01:00 am] |


the best selects from our trip condensed into collages created by Doug, they've become the photos i can be continually entranced by, where every single moment in those pixels can be coloured with the emotions of that day. i would say these photos are the zenith of our trip and all that we have become as a couple. gone are our lovey-dovey photos, replaced with these silly and almost child-likeness imagery, our emotions so raw we were lost in time, jumping up and down, off and on the rock. that fleeting gaze of happiness that soaked through our veins and the electricity running through every touch. it felt like mindless activity for our souls, renewing and refreshing our relationship every time.
six years together and i dare say we found back what we were looking for.
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| prelude. |
[May. 18th, 2009|12:38 am] |
| [ | Feelin' |
| | rejuvenated | ] | back from bintan refreshed and energized in every sense possible, senses tingling with excitement that has yet to die down from the events of the past 2 days. snippets of stories that run through my mind intermittently, yet all so vivid with colour and memory. the high of the culminating getaway that still has my heart pumping with adrenaline, it's almost as if we left our hearts there. no words to describe the unexpected repercussions of what ensued during our trip. but i believe we put airy-fairy back into our relationship, and i know that the honeymoon stretch actually extends subtly and silently into the later years, if only we make the effort to redeem it again.
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| automatic graduate. |
[May. 15th, 2009|04:04 pm] |
after 7 months, nothing beats satisfaction than seeing that stamp and the bold letters of PASSED. even mummy dearest screamed into the phone when i told her i passed. haha, she's a cutie at heart i swear. the breath-holding, heart beating nervousness when the tester skipped S-course and the slope, made me go through test route 4 in 5 minutes before driving into that yellow box of nerves breaking free, dying to know my result. the video, the 40 minutes of waiting for my driving license just made it clear that i would never have to go back to khaki bukit. every thing's going as planned, our long-awaited Bintan getaway tomorrow & lasik surgery in less than a week, more meet-ups with the bestest friends and amazingly, heart to heart with mummy dearest on our ever frequent lunch dates.
what a week but never gonna trade it. :) |
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| just can't get enough, baby. |
[May. 13th, 2009|01:09 am] |
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they remind me of benefit cosmetics coming to live, love the theatrics behind it. and they made me love this song again.
on a totally random note... driving in 2 days, bintan in 3, lasik in 8. yep, i just can't get enough alright. will try to update!
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| if you're lost, you can look and you will find me. |
[May. 12th, 2009|02:23 pm] |
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10 promises to my dogs. 1. Listen patiently to what i have to say. 2. Trust me, i am always on your side. 3. PLay with me a lot. 4. Don't forget that i have feelings too. 5. Let's never fight. 6. If i don't obey you, i have a good reason. 7. You have school and friends, but i only have you. 8. Stay my best friend, we must get along. 9. I'll only live about 10 years, make every moment count. 10. Never forget our life together, when my time comes, please be by my side.
just watched 10 promises to my dog over lunch with my 3 loves sprawled at my feet, taking their afternoon naps, and i realised how little a dog asks of their owners. Give them your love and they're the happiest dog alive. I wouldn't want their time to come, i don't think i can handle it.
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| the darnest things, |
[May. 4th, 2009|02:38 am] |
creating family stick people and having them printed as decals is probably one of the best inventions of personalization to date, just look at what i think of my family in stick people world. my dad is all psyched to have them shipped over, and i'm already thinking about how this will look at the rear end of our car. ahahaha can you say awesome. |
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| i sing you to me; |
[Apr. 24th, 2009|12:37 am] |
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"if you ain't got love in your heart, you got no story, no nothing." -Australia |
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| you give me something to hold on to; |
[Apr. 15th, 2009|10:11 pm] |

i think we all have this little stash of heaven that keeps us going, even if it makes us happy for a little while. it's probably the greatest reward (apart from ice cream) when all you've been doing is trying to cram one whole semester worth of notes into a brain that keeps rejecting them. lol. exams make people lugubrious, it's funny how when i saw all those chocolates and sweets, i felt redeemed. like they were my saviour. hur. 3 more papers hang in there dee.
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| just breathe, |
[Mar. 29th, 2009|10:14 pm] |
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i feel the pain you have sweetheart, my heart sank with that despairing tone of yours. i've not heard you cry like this in ages, and your heartbreak sent my heart into pangs of unspoken emotions. i wished you would let me be there for you that day, i wished you had called my first, but i know you needed your space and closure. you'll get through this honey, we'll do it together, just like how we went about our patter those days in school. above all, you'll be okay. i promise.
xoxo, dee.
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| puppy love. |
[Mar. 23rd, 2009|02:59 am] |
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| live high, |
[Mar. 21st, 2009|11:04 pm] |
the paragon of music, he walked an entire street of France singing this. another reason why we all love him.
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| i tried to craft a FML entry, |
[Mar. 18th, 2009|09:46 pm] |
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today my head got mistaken for a headrest and was ignorantly pushed down forcefully as support for this guy who was getting of the bus. i turned around almost ready to give my deadliest stare when it hit me that it was actually funny, and i started giggling. My friend beside me just said it was sad. FML
okay, so i figured this veered more to the side of tragically sad than funny, but then i remembered the NTU feedback video. . . . . . . . . . . .
you be the judge. |
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| weekend massacre, |
[Mar. 17th, 2009|12:18 am] |
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| [ | Current Music |
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two birthday dinners + one herculean wedding fitting + a hell lot of jostling at the bodyshop warehouse sale = one smashing weekend.
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